eR!n'S d!iArY...

In SiNgApOrE dEe....

2008-10-09T22:35:00.003+08:00

GUESS what,. dun think you will guess it...All of sudden from las post til now lou kong is in Singapore d..working....It's been 3 weeks d he's been there..Miss him a lot lor..Now everyday come back have to stay at home wait for his call or skype...

I know that he is tired working there..sometimes work til early in the morning and only get back for sleep and rest..BUT what can i do??There is nothing much as i am in Penang. I really wanted to go there ASAP but the more anxious i am the worst i am gettiing. I have already sent in many many job applications but too bad there is none which reply. 1 of the reason is that it is year end d and no one is willing to hired + the job requirement for office work mostly need PR or SPR.

I can do nothing more but just wait until someone called me for interview. WAIT>>>WAIT>>>WAIT>>>that is what i can do NOW....

51/2 days to go :(

2008-06-25T00:11:00.002+08:00

51/2 days to go before i am left alone again :(
We went to kl last week for interview for lou kong...The employer gives him a great deal and i supposed he is interested in that job but the thing is that it's in KL :(
And that does mean that we have to seperated again after so long..the time when we separated during studies time are the hardest time to passed but we manage to get through but how bout this time???

I am speechless and very unhappy when i think that i have to separated from him again.. It means that whenever im sad or happy there will be no one beside me to share my ups and downs (what can i do)..it's his future..i have to let him go and it's one of the road we are going thru to move to adulthood..But this time i think he'll be left for long, not only 2 years, probably moving there(who know's rite?)

Everyday when i woke up i feel very sad and hope that times will go by slowly cos i dun wan to left him :( Is there anyone out there teach me how to do????I try not to be sad when i face him but when im left alone i'll cry sometimes,wondering why is it so..I know that kl from pg is not far and we'll be visiting each other everyweek and then but i know i won't be getting used to that when im back from work, there is no one to wait me at home to fetch me or no one beside me when im sick, no one to take me go out, having my lunch or dinner together and many many other things that we used to do together...

I really feel sad and berat hati to let him go kl .... :(

NeW ShOe LaCinG....

2008-06-09T11:26:00.014+08:00

~~ The lace is run straight across the bottom and emerges through both bottom eyelets.

~~ The laces then go straight up and are fed into the next set of eyelets up the shoe.

~~ The ends are crossed over and are fed under the vertical lace section on the opposite sides of the shoe before going straight up and into the next set of eyelets up the shoe.

~~ At the top set of eyelets, the laces can once again cross over and pass under the straight section as shown.

~~ This not only look consistent with the rest of the lacing but also forms a High Lace Lock, which tightens the lacing even more firmly.

~~ The lace is run straight across the bottom and emerges through both bottom eyelets.

~~ The ends are looped back under the lace where it feeds under the side of the shoe.

~~ The ends are then crossed over each other, then they go under and out through the next set of eyelets up the shoe.

~~ Step 2 and 3 are repeated until both ends reach the top eyelets.

~~ The lace is run straight across the bottom and emerges through both bottom eyelets.

~~ One end of the lace (orange end) runs straight up the right side, is fed into and runs straight across the second set of eyelets.

~~ Both ends now run straight up the left side, each skipping one eyelet before feeding in two eyelets higher up.

~~ Continue running both ends across the shoe, then straight up two eyelets at a time.

~~ At the top of the shoe, the laces end up on the same side and the shoelace knot is tied at that point

~~ The lace runs straight across the bottom and the ends are fed into both bottom eyelets.

~~ One end of the lace (orange end) runs straight up the right side emerges from and runs straight across the second set of eyelets.

~~ The other end (red end) runs diagonally underneath and, skipping the 2nd eyelets, emerges from and runs straight across the 3rd sets of eyelets.

~~ Continue running each lace diagonally across and up 2 sets of eyelets until one end (orange in my example) reaches the top right eyelet.

~~ The other end (red in my example) then runs straight up the left side to emerge from the top left eyelet.

~~ The lace runs straight across and emerges from the third set of eyelets from the bottom.

~~ Both ends run straight down and are fed into the second set of eyelets from the bottom.

~~ Both ends again run straight down and emerge from the bottom set of eyelets.

~~ Both ends now run straight up along the outside and are fed into the fourth set of eyelets (the first vacant pair)

~~ The ends are crossed over eachother, then they go under and out through the next set of eyelets up the shoe.

~~ Repeat step (5) until both ends reach the top

~~ The lace is run diagonally and emerges from the bottom left and the top right eyelets.

~~ The top (red) end of the lace is zig-zagged from the top set of eyelets down to the middle eyelets.

~~ The bottom (orange) end of the lace is similarly zig-zagged from the bottom set of eyelets up to the middle eyelets.

~~ Start with two pairs of different colour laces, preferably the wide, flat variety

~~ With one colour (orange in my example), lace the shoe using either Straight(Fashion) or Straight(Lazy).

~~ With the other colour (red in my example), start at the bottom of the shoe and weave the lace in and out of the other lace until you reach the top.

~~ Fold around the top lace and head back down, weaving out and in until you reach the bottom.

~~ Continue across the shoe until you're out of room or out of lace, whichever come first.

~~ Tuck all the loose ends of the laces into the shoe.

~~ The lace runs straight across the bottom and emerges from both bottom eyelets.

~~ Cross the ends over and feed into the 4th sets of eyelets up the shoe (skip past 2 sets of eyelets)

~~ Both ends now run straight up and emerge from the 5th set of eyelets 4.

~~ Cross the ends over and feed into the 2nd set of eyelets up the shoe (skip past 2 sets of eyelets)

~~ Both ends now run straight up and emerge from the 3rd set of eyelets 6.

~~ Cross the ends over, feed under and emerge from the top set of eyelets (skip past 2 sets of eyelets)

~~ Take two different colour laces, each a tiny bit longer than the correct lenght for the shoes.

~~ Cut them not quite into half, but offset by two or three centimetres.

~~ Tie one shorter piece of one colour (orange in my example) and one longer pience of the other colour (red in my example) firmly together and trim off the excess.

~~ For extra security, add a dab of glue.

~~ Use the remaining pieces to make the bicolour lace for the other shoe.

~~ Pull the longer (red) end out through the bottom right eyelet, feeding from inside the shoe, until you reach the joining know.

~~ Now lace the rest of the shoe as per Straight (Fashion) Lacing.

Ebay???

2008-06-09T09:49:00.003+08:00

I was wondering how can i learn how to make a business online using ebay???I have a lot of unwanted stuff that i wanted to throw, but it's just a waste and was thinking "why not i sell it online", but how???

So right now, I start to learn how to sell on ebay since i have a lot of times during office hours but too bad the server is so slow or else i can learn faster..anyhow that's all for now, till i learn how to learn ebay!!!

SeNtImEntAl GuY???

2008-06-07T23:19:00.002+08:00

What do you have in mind when u think of sentimental??is it someone who is sweet talking or someone who loves you with all your hearts??

I was having my dinner with lun @ japin, queensbay..Next to my table there is a chinese couple with a pair of kids and an indian friends with them..They were chatting away with some 'love history' of the indian guy. He was a christian as i expected and a very charming guy(from what i heard) and is from kl. All i heard was his story; how he broke up with a girl he loves, and then only relief and feel happy after his ex found his new half. And how he woke up one day and he says that deep inside there's a voice telling him that "she's" the girl that i wanted to spend all my life with and then he propose to her later on..

I just dunno how to describe from what i heard, but when i heard it my heart got 'touched'..And i was thinking how romantic this guy is and this the guy in front of me "is he my other half"... From the first day we date until now, it's been 5 years and i really felt very happy but i never feel touched by him. He won't say some romantic things to me and probably he's chinese ed and thus make him feel so hard to say something or do something that really touched my heart or how..I don't demand much from him, and i know he loves me and care for me alot but never more than that.. Sometimes when i heard or see somethin romantic i wish i was the person in it..

I really don't know what happen lately. I feel very tired and sometimes think of useless thing and have been thinking "is he the ONE"...pleaaaseeee can someone tell me!!!

New BoSs, NeW eNvIrOnMenT bUt SamE olD oFFicE....

2008-06-03T22:48:00.002+08:00

It's been quite some time already i've been in the new place with my new boss, Lim Hock Seng, and also new office.. He's an old chap in DAP..I hope that the new DAP government will make differences in our life, better than last time i hope..
There's is lesser work than last time cos this time my boss is so down to earth that sometimes he does thing himself, it's probably because that he started from scratch, not like my old boss
;(
But i'll adapt to this new environment cause i need to make a living, like every other person, am i right???

i'M bAcKkkk...

2008-06-03T22:46:00.002+08:00

It's been a very long time since i last logged in to blogged..A lot of things happened recently, some are sad and some are happy moments but i'll try to pen down my feelings..

I'm RecOvEr...

2007-11-14T09:35:00.000+08:00

Phewww...At last i'm recover from sickness but not yet fully recovered, but at least i feel better and more energy and thats when i'll continue to pen down my feelings and especially what had happened during my birthday week..

20th OcT 2007...

2007-10-24T21:59:00.000+08:00

we only depart from penang around 6 something to our destination ~ kl... We arrive there around 10 something and celebrate my birthday there. Most of them drank till they're drunk and it was almost 3 am in the morning that we slept. it was very tiring but i couldn't say that it isn't the best but not what i was expecting from them :0 or am i just demanding about how people wants to celebrate my birhtday. Actually it was different from what i expected. its looks like gathering than what it is ~~my BirthDAy~~ but afterall i was very happy.

~~ Thanks to all who celebrate with me ~~

cUrlY or lOng, ShoRty hAiR...

2007-10-11T13:58:00.000+08:00

It was disturbing me, and i was wondering whether i should perm my hair curly or juz cut it short or trim it...i was longing for curly hair and wanted to perm it but my darling says it doesn't suits me. However, it was long time ago, and i think it was 2 years back since i last perm my hair...if i just do some haircut, it was like my hair should be trim about 3-4cm, and that is 'long'...jus dunno wat to do..anyone can teach me??should i perm or leave it straight cos i wan a new look for my birthday this year...

My wEekEnD!!!

2007-10-07T22:38:00.000+08:00

It's now 10.35pm, sunday and that means that the weekend is over and i have to work tomolo :(
kinda lazy when thinking of going back to work tomorrow coz' sometimes if there is nothing to do @ office, and when there is no topic to chat, it's very very very boring..all that i'm doing is facing the computer mostly the whole day...but i'm very tired now,juz that i can't snooze yet, no idea what happen..
This morning i went to market and then shopping with my parents as usual, but yesterday i dunno wat time i slept so very tired lor..i was waiting for someone to come back home but i slept before he arrive home :( but..but..when i woke up this morning and open my eyes, tadaaa he's right beside me,hahahaha
Sooo,,,,it's okie to be so tired...don;t you think so..OKIE that's all for tonite. juz wanna pen down something before i go to ZzzZzzzz..that's all...gud nite my dear :*

Can couples chat like friends???

2007-10-05T15:40:00.000+08:00

What do you think of it???
Can couples no matter how long is the relationship chat and works out like their friends???Any couples which are long in a relationship and when they get to know more and more, everything is going to be different.. There will more problem arising!!!
Haiz...y is this so???But luckily mine is different..although 4 years is coming to near, we grew more and more closer as each day passes...we talk about everything, sometimes something even more private..and i have faith in my relationship that it will go to another stage soon and forever it will go on..
But every relationship has to go thru' stage by stage and each stage is more and more difficult.. WHAT about if the relationship moves to another stage as husband and wife, things will be different, but nowadays people married and divorce like 'eating something u love and it feel bad and you spit it out', even when they have children. They just divorce as they wish and doesn't care about the children future...but if the couples are matured enough, they will hang on and change for each other to seek a better future...what is the world going to be in next 10 decades...can anyone answer me??

A Sad Love Story ...

2007-10-05T10:29:00.000+08:00

If this doesn't touch you...go get a heart!!!

One night a guy and a girl were driving home from the movies. The boy sensed there was something wrong because of the painful silence they shared between them at night. The girl then asked the boy to pull over because she wanted to talk. She told him that her feelings had changed and that it was time to move on. A silent tear slid down his cheek as he slowly reached into his pocket and passed her a folded note. At that moment, a drunk driver was speeding down that very same street. He swerved right into the drivers seat, killing the boy.
Miraculously, the girl survived. Remembering the note, she pulled it out and read it
"Without your love' I would die."

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This is even more touching ...

This story is about a girl who felt ignored.

I have a boyfriend who grew up with me. His name is Jin. I have always thought of him as a friend until last year, when we went to a trip from a club, I found out that i fell in love with him. Before the trip was over, I took a step and confessed my love for him. And soon, we became a pair of lovers, but we loved each other in different ways.
I always concentrated on him only, but by his side, there was so many other girls. To me, he was the only one, but to him , maybe i was just another girls ...
"Jin, do you want to go watch a movie?" I asked.
"I can't"
"Why? You need to study at home?" I felt dissapointed grabbing him.
"No...I am going to meet a friend..."
He was always like that. He met girls in front of me, like it was nothing. To him, I was just a girlfirend. The word 'love' only came out of my mouth. Since i knew him, i had never heard him say 'I Love You' before. To us, there weren't any anniversaries at all. He didn't say anything from the first day and it continued til 100 days ... 200 days ...
Everyday, before we say goodbye, he would just hand me a doll, everyday, without fail. I don't know why..
Then one day ...
Me : Um, Jin, I...
Jin : What...don't drag,just sayv...
Me : I love you
Jin : ........ you ......um, just take this doll and go home
That was how he ignored my 'three words' and handed me the doll. Then he dissapeared, like he was running away. The dolls i received from him everyday, filled my room, one by one. There were many ....
Then one day come, my 15th year old birthday. When i got up in the morning, i pictured a party with im, and stranded myself in my room, waiting for his call. But .... lunch passed, dinner passed...and soon the sky was dark...he still didn't call. I was already tiring to look at the phone anymore...2 am in the morning, he suddenly called me and woke me from my sleep. He told me to come out of the house. Still, I felt joy and i ran out happily.
Me : Jin....
Jin : Here..take this...
Again, he handed me a little doll
Me : What's this?
Jin : I didn't give it to you yesterday, so i am giving it to you now.
I'm going home now, bye.
Me : Wait, wait! Do you know what day is today?
Jin : Today?Huh?
I felt so sad, I thought he would remember my birthday. He turned around and walked away like nothing happened. Then i shouted...
"Wait..."
Jin : You have something to say?
Me : Tell me, tell me that you love me...
Jin : What?!
Me : Tell me
I put my pathetic self behind and clung onto him. But he just said simple cold words and left.
" I don't want to say..that i love someone so easily, if you are desperate to hear it, then find someone else."
That was what he said. Then ran off...
My legs felt numb...and i collapsed to the ground. He didn't want to say it easily... How could he... I felt that .... maybe he's not the right guy for me...
After that day, i stranded myself at home crying, just crying. He didn't call m e, although i was waiting. He just continued handing me a little doll every morning outside my house. That's how those dolls piled up my room...everyday..
After a month, i got myself together and went to school. But what made the pain resurface was that...i saw him on a street....with another girl...
He had a smile on his face, one that he never showed me...as he touched the doll...
I ran straight back home and looked at the dolls in my room and tears fell...WHY DIS HE GAVE THESE TO ME???
Those dolls are probably picked out by some other girls...In a fit of anger, i threw the dolls around. Then suddenly the phone rang. It was him. He told me to come out to the bus stop outside my house. I tried to calm myself that i am going to forget him, that ...its going to end. Then he came into my sight, holding a big doll.
Jin : Jo, I thought you were pissed, you really came?
I couldn't help hating him, acting like nothing had happended and joking around. Soon, he held out the doll as usual...
Me : I don't need it
Jin : What...why...
I grabbed the doll from his hands and threw it on the road
Me : I don't need this doll, I don't need it anymore!! I don't want to see a person like you again!
I spitted out all the words that were inside me. But unlike other days, his eyes were very shaky.
"I'm sorry" He apologized in a tiny voice.
He then walked over to the road to pick up the doll...
"You stupid! Why are you picking up the doll?! Just throw it away!!!"
But he ignored me and just went to pick the doll. Then...
HONK~HONK~~
With a loud honk, a big trunk was heading towards him.
"Jin! Move! Move away!" I shouted
But he didn't hear me, he squatted down and picked up the doll.
"Jin, move!"
HONK~~!!!
"BOOM!!"That sound, so terrfying. That's how he went away from me. That's how he went away without evening opening his eyes to say one word to me. After that day, I had to go through everyday with guiltiness and the sadness of losing him..
And after spending two months like a crazy person...
I took out the dolls. Those were the only gifts he left me since the day we started going out. I remembered the days i spent with him and started to count the days...when we were in love...
"One.... two...threee...."
That was how...I started to count the dolls...
"Four hundred and eighty four...four hundred and eighty five..."
It all ended with 485 dolls. I then started to cry again, with a doll in my arms. I hugged it tightly, then suddenly...
"I love you~, I love you~"
I dropped the dolls, shocked.
"I...lo...ve....you??"
"I love you~ I love you~
It can't be!!
I pressed all the dolls' stomach as it piled on the side.
"I love you~"
"I love you~"
"I love you~"
Those words came out non-stop.
I...love you....
Why didn't i realize that...
That his heart was always by my side, protecting me..Why didn't I realize that he love me this much...
I took out the doll under the bed and pressed it's stomach, that was the last doll, the one that fell on the road. It has his blood stain on it.
The voice came out, the one thing that i was missing so much...
"Jo, Do you know what day is today?We've been loving each other for 486 days. Do you know what 486 is? I couldn't say I love you...Um...since I was to shy..If you could forgive me and take this doll, I will say that i love you...everyday...till i die...Jo...I love you...."
The tears came flowing out of me..Why? Why? I asked god, why do I only know about this now??
He can't be by my side, but he loved me until his last minute...For that...and for that reason...to me...it became courage...to live a beautiful life...

~That's the end of the touching story~

hE's ThE oNe!!!

2007-10-05T09:43:00.000+08:00

There he is..The name of my love one :) i'll show you the picture later on ...

To all those who knew him, we're of course schoolmates...to those who dunno him, haha,, he's the one i know for nearly 6 years before we started our relationship...And now its coming to 4 years that we're together and this has been the happiest time of all..There is up and downs in our relationship but this will only strenghten our love...He really cares for me a lot and loves me all the time. He will do anything i ask for, take me wherever i wants to go and will teach/scold me of course when i've done something wrong but i know everything he do is for the sake of me...and of course i do love him toooo.... i love it when i fall sick cos he'll be there to take care of me whole night :P

There was once that he told me he was interested in me during schooltimes but as i was ignoring him and in different class, therefore we are only 'classmates' and nothing else happen :( if i knew it before, probably .... i also dunno whether will both of us be together!!!

But all i know was now he was the one and the only one i will and of couse to be together til' forever

HeRe i ComE...WaiT fOr Me....

2007-10-04T16:17:00.000+08:00

mY ceLebRItiEs LooKaLikE...

2007-10-04T15:47:00.000+08:00

13 dAyS to Goooo...

2007-10-04T14:20:00.000+08:00

13, yeah thirteen days to go and i'll be away from work for 1 week holiday, most probably will be in Kl shopping. There are three shopping complex which are waiting for me to visit them, hehehe...one is The Garden @ Mid Valley, Sunway Pyramid 2 and also The Pavillion...Can't wait to visit The Garden especially and also Pyramid 2..The Pavillion i think is okie nia cause' i think the brand the doesn't suit me at all...

And oh yeah, i'll be visiting the 'Eyes of Malaysia' too..it has been up for nearly a years and until now i feel like visiting them, or i'll be left out, never had visit our M'sia attraction before...better go quickly before it ends on the 31st dec rite???

But for sure i'll be up to Genting for my birthday cause' i love the weather over there..i couldn't find some special place in M'sia which are so cooling and have all the entertainment, esp all the games which i love to play and tiz time will be out to outdoor and also indoor and play till' im tired...I really wish that the days will come soon.

jUz aS i ThiNK...

2007-10-04T14:03:00.001+08:00

I went thru' padini concept store and my main reasons is to buy the accessories but while walking i saw this shirt and the jacket, without thinking i took all two to the fitting room and hahaha im going to be RM150++ poorer cos both of them cost me around that..but luckily i got someone to pay for me willingly, so lucky!!! I'm going to wear this when i go for holiday later on..

PuFfY eYeS!!!

2007-10-04T10:31:00.000+08:00

is This Me???Why i Look lIke tIz...

It was a beautiful day and evening when i decided to go for some dinner gathering for my 'hubby' younger sister. Everything was fine until dinner time when i felt itchy in my eyes, i didn't notice it at first that my eyes were red and suddenly i dun feel like eating anymore cause' the itchyness is so annoying that i went up to his room and have my nap(not really nap but i can't open my eyes)..

He came up after a while and saw that my eyes have started to bengkak but not one eyes its both of them :(
So he took some cold ice water and a cloth and dampen the clothes to put it on my eyes, but after a few hours its still the same and it's getting more worse. I couldnt bare it anymore and decided to go back home and rest and hope that it gets better in the morning.

Too bad there was so many people in his house that when i got down, hahaha i was like some unknown girl and everyone was shocked to c my eyes like this :( so so pity

okie..okie...i really could't sleep well at night and when i woke up early in the morning my eyes still looks the same but its has worsen this time, and im unable to open my eyes big, so i have to apply for emergency leave to stay at home cause' i dare not go out from my house also, hahahaha...i really look so bad and feel very very pain in my eyes that i stay at home whole day. Luckily today i woke up with my eyes feeling better and i hope that it will stay the same always.. really hope that i will feel better today,but my eyes still so blur blur and looks so small

Out Of BoRedOm...

2007-10-01T15:26:00.000+08:00

Today is the 1st day of October, that means that the year is coming to an end in few months time. I've nothing to do today, and after lunch juz now, suddenly i felt that i have to start my blog already. From last week til' today, i've been learning how to post thing up using rockyou.com(the only webpage that i knew) to make my blog pretty cool,hahaha dun u think so..

I've try so hard to learn to post photo and also make the words interesting but kinda fail last week and it makes me so lazy to try and try. But today and since its the first day of Oct, i'll then try to post as much as possible as i can and will update it always..I'm not sure if anyone understand what i am trying to say but i do hope so...hahaha..have a nice day

2007-10-01T15:24:00.000+08:00

Tiz would be my really really first time writting something which everyone knew as 'blog'... Never in my thoughts that i would start a blog, and since tiz is the starting for me, i'll try to make it as interesting as possible..i'm not sure how other people blog is but i am sure thru' tiz blog i'll just pen down everything i feel like and will try to make it as interesting as possible :)